for Nina

The sound of of me offering everything

to you

is the sound of everything

being delighted to be offered to you.

it is the sound a particle of dust makes when

it is grateful.

it is the sound a sheep makes when

it remembers it has a herd.

it is the sound your brain makes when it chews on these words.

remember that sound, and i’ll remember it too.

the way that the butterlamp looked when

i lit it just for you

is the way that

your mother loked when

she first laid eyes on you.

it is the way that your playground friends looked when

they laughed at your silly jokes.

it is the way your God looked when

he listened to your prayers.

and he did:

remember that look, and i’ll remember it too.

the way that my mind felt when

i realized

how beautiful you are

is the way that a catatonic man feels when

he wakes up from his dream.

is the way that a rich man feels when

he sees that he’s been cheap.

is the way that Buddha must have felt when

he knew that it was all worth it:

remember that feeling.

and i’ll remember it too.

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